In 2014 I am intentionally making choices. January was about being still.
Here is the thing. I have two tiny humans, that are not.ever.still. This means that my mind is very rarely still.
I have come to realize that when you put something out into the ether, like…”I am going to choose stillness”, the world/tiny minions/Satan/calendar events/illnesses all conspire against you. With all that I had, I began baby steps to choose stillness. Some days, all I was allowed was the 3 minutes of blank staring at the dinner table. Those few minutes were pure glory.
Most mornings, I sat with my coffee and read a devotional, or completed my bible study. Other mornings, when it was WAY too dark for anyone to be awake, I put on a show for the littles, and crawled back into bed for 10 minutes. No shame or judgement.
I am not sure one can learn a discipline of stillness in one short month. It is something I STARTED in January, but did not perfect. Work in progress people.
Readings I am working my way through related to stillness:
Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in His Presence by Sarah Young
Let. It. Go.: How to Stop Running the Show and Start Walking in Faith by Ehman, Karen
In February, I am choosing to reduce. Reduce stress, reduce our spending, reduce our trash, reduce judgement. REDUCE!!!
I am going to really try to reduce judging myself. Not sure why I think I can do it all. Lies. Guess what…you have two toddlers?!?! Life will be hard for a bit longer. It just will. Your house will be dirty, and you will forget to reply to emails/text/voicemails. Settle in to the chaos already.
This mama neeeeeeeeds to reduce screen time. Not sure I can join the hands free revolution just yet, but something needs to give for sure.
Reducing the hoarder-status in the garage is on the agenda this month as well. Simmer on the calls to TLC. There is an almost-unobscured walking lane all the way through. Sheesh.
Also, we were introduced to a very cool diaper composting service. We get to reduce our landfill contribution (and possibly our garbage can size)! YAY!
Bottom line…How will my relationships, parenting, work/business life, budget change if I choose to reduce?
Learning to make the small choices that add up to big change. It is a journey!